January 25, 2005

Today, I Am the Anti-Zen

I am so fucking frustrated.

I thought I was dealing with this recurring situation calmly and matter-of-factly. Letting it roll right off, not letting it get to me. Not getting stressed out. Not taking it on personally. Everything's zen. Going with the flow and accepting what is and letting what will be, be.

Suzanne Is PissedEvidently that's not the case. I'm at the point where I have to acknowledge just how pissed off I am. I'm soooooooo fucking angry. So I'll vent. Surely it will help. See me assume a posture of great physical tension. Become alarmed by my threatening stature. Watch my eyebrows knit together in consternation, my face tighten up and lightning bolts shoot from my usually laughing green eyes. Observe as the steam billows out my of ears. I am The Hulk dammit! I am enraged!

You inconsiderate disrespectful self-centered arrogant ungrateful thoughtless non-email-answering non-phone-call-returning non-communicative asshole fucktard. Yeah. You know who you are. Kiss my ass, you impolite self-absorbed narcissistic twit.

Is losing it on one's blog preferable to losing it in the face of a real live human being? My preference would be neither. And if I'm going to lose it like that, it had better be in this realm. I can't imagine saying that out loud to a real live person. So since we're here and it's already out there, this choice is better than the alternative.

I'm so fucking mature.
Aren't you glad I'm not your mother?

5 comments:

Elizabeth said...

'Become alarmed by my threatening stature.'...color me a-scared. Plus you said fuck without the * for the letter 'u'. I'd say you're pretty pissed.

I'm going to guess who this is for...I could be wrong but,

I went to a yoga retreat last year and there was a woman there who was having trouble with her teenage daughter. There was also a woman who had four children. The woman with four told the woman with one, 'she'll come back.'

I believe that most women with four children have a certain wisdom that those of us with one don't necessarily have.

Let him go for a while...he'll come back.

If I guessed wrong then color me a dumbass.

Elizabeth said...

'Become alarmed by my threatening stature.'...color me a-scared. Plus you said fuck without the * for the letter 'u'. I'd say you're pretty pissed.

I'm going to guess who this is for...I could be wrong but,

I went to a yoga retreat last year and there was a woman there who was having trouble with her teenage daughter. There was also a woman who had four children. The woman with four told the woman with one, 'she'll come back.'

I believe that most women with four children have a certain wisdom that those of us with one don't necessarily have.

Let him go for a while...he'll come back.

If I guessed wrong then color me a dumbass.

Eyes for Lies said...

Ahh...to be human.

It is those who pretend to never feel like this who LIE :)

Hope you feel better soon!

Dr Dre said...

Dam it, I really do feel like you today. Not for any other reason but the fact that I am tied to a dam job that I can not run away from.
http://amg22.blogspot.com/

whispers said...

I have to agree with the earlier assessment that this could easily a parental reaction. I think there are few who can bring us to that level of frustration, and children are high on that list.
Hang in there, vent when you need to, and know the one who caused that level of response is probably clueless.